| 5 entries | | |  | | | | Happy but still depressed | wrote | | | I'm trying to be happy, i'll never stop being misrible if i don't at least try and be happy. Hopefully today my sister can buy me that PS2 controller she owes me, i don't see the problem its £2.49 from Argos. My boyfriend should be back in about a week or so, so i can finally see him, i miss him terribly. I should get a call from the job centre soon so i can get some bloody money, i'm also expecting a letter from countselling. I've been trying to firm up, i think its working x. | | | | | Birth | wrote | | | I haven't wrote in a while, not much has happened though, other then 'Mr. I dont believe in love' says he loves me and today i saw my sister give birth. It wasn't as dramatic as you think, and even though it takes hours when she was pushing him out and he was actually being born it was over so fast. I'm amazed how well she coped. Because of this i'm not to scared of going through this pregnancy scare, im going doctors soon so i will find out. My boyfriend knows and now thinks i'm an idiot thoug | | | | | untitled | wrote | | | It's that time of year again, couples in love, kissy, kissy, smouch. Well my sky's grey and if you look up so will yours be. I'm not living in a different world, so what makes you special. I'm only angry because my valentine doesn't believe in love, so why am i even with him? I feel used, a slut. I haven't even seen him for 11 days. He might as well be not real, because its begining to feel like hes not. I'm depressed again, but i will put a happy face on because i dont want to face the truth. | | | | | stuff | wrote | | | I'm not going to with someone just because there happy and i'm not, its crazy i want a relationship were we are both happy. Now this guy i used to talk to thinks i'm a heartless bitch because i only like him as a friend. He also thinks im a slut because i jumpped into bed with another guy(who i do actually like that way) before i even met him(the guy who thinks im a slut), but we are in a relationship is that so illegal? The only problem with my current relationship is me and my lack of talking | | | | | Why do i have to name a subject? | wrote | | | How can you be gratified and despondent at the same time? Thats what i am and i don't understand how it can be. Im glad because i met someone but its more of a weekend thing. Thats 5 days i dont have any comfort and not a character in the world to converse with. I should be happy as larry with what i have but i want more, much more. When i do have a chance to comunicate i back out and it doesn't happen, i just can't do it, i am courage-less and without hope. | | | | | 5 entries | | |
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